The juandiced see everything as yellow, so such a man discovers, as he sinks deeper and deeper, an increasing manifold of sin about him. His eye is alert and trained, not for the understanding of truth, hence for untruth; consequently his sigh is prejudiced more and more so that, increasingly defiled he sees evil in everything, impurity even in what is purest - and this sight (oh terrible thought!) is still to him a kind of consolation, for it is important to him to discover as boundless a multitude as possible. At last there are no limits to his discovery; for now he discovers sin even where he himself knows there there is none; he discovers it by the help of back-biting, slander, the fabrication of lies, in which he has trained himself so long that he at least believes it. Such a man verily discovered the multitude of sins!

But the lover discovers nothing. There is something so infinitely solemn and yet also so childlike, something which recalls a childish game, when the lover by discovering nothing at all hides the multitude of sins; something that recalls a child game, for that is the way we play with a child. We play that we cannot see the child who is standing in front of us, or the child plays that it cannot see us, and this the child finds indescribably amusing. The childlikeness here is that the lover, as in the game, with his eyes wide open, cannot see what is happening just in front of him; the solemnity consists in the fact that it is the evil which he cannot see. We all know that orientals honor a demented person, but this lover, who is worthy of honor is as it were a demented person. We all know that in the old times they made, and rightly , a great distinction between the two kinds of madness, one was a distressing sickness, and one bemoaned such a misfortune; the other was called a divine madness.
(Soren Kierkegaard)

"No, life has not disappointed me. On the contrary, I find it truer, more desirable, and mysterious every year."

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There is a price to pay for projecting yourself on the world's television screens as a toxic combination of posh, nerdy and really rather feeble. Or, as he puts it, people came to truly believe he was a lonely, dysfunctional, OCD loser - and for years, he was happy to be thought of like that. The language of self-loathing, as he puts it, gets a lot of laughs. By my mid-30s I was single and lonely he tells me. "My career was going well but that wasn't really enough. I'd never properly gone out with anyone for any length of time. I hadn't learned things about myself.

I thought I'd be horrendously ill-equipped to forge successful relationships. Worse, I felt like I somehow was now coming across on television as the sort of person who wouldn't want that.

(dailymail.co.uk, Simon Lewis)

"One of the things that annoys me about the modern world is you're always supposed to want the next challenge. I don't want the next challenge, I've never liked challenges. I'm not a neck-sticker-outer kinda guy. I just want to keep doing now what I'm doing."

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"It's difficult to believe in yourself because the idea of self is an artificial construction. You are, in fact, part of the glorious oneness of the universe. Everything beautiful in the world is within you. No one really feels self-confident deep down because it's an artificial idea. Really, people aren't that worried about what you're doing or what you're saying, so you can drift around the world relatively anonymously: you must not feel persecuted and examined. Liberate yourself from that idea that people are watching you."

"Be led by your talent, not by your self-loathing; those other things you just have to manage."

"My life is just a series of embarrassing incidents strung together by telling people about those embarrassing incidents."

"I know that's the sort of thing people say and I really hate it when people say the sort of things people say. I always think, You don't mean that, you just think it sounds good."