August 2013

* the assumption

"Simon Peter said to them,

"Let Mary (Magdalene) leave us, for women are not worthy of life."

Jesus said,
"I myself shall
lead her in order to
make her male,
so that he too may become a living spirit resembling you males. For every woman who will make herself male will enter the Kingdom of Heaven."
(Thomas: 114)

"If you don't have any standards or requirements, guess whose rules he's going to follow?  That's right, his mother's.  She was the first woman to tell him what she would and would not accept; if she told him to wash his hands before he sat at the dinner table, be back in the house before the streetlights came on, go to Sunday school on Sundays, protect his sister when the two of them were out, and always, always listen to and trust his mother - guess what this boy was going to do?  A mother always keeps some of those rules front and center for the men in her life, no matter her son's station in life, including respect her, loving her unconditionally and protecting and providing for the woman who gave him life. She never relinquishes those standards and requirements and so, if he's a responsible, thoughtful loving son, he doesn't really ever break away from them."
(Steve Harvey, Act like a Lady, Think Like a Man)

Cactus | Patrick Watts

Tin Angel | Bob Dylan

Darkness | Leonard Cohen

the Mighty Quinn



"If we do not know what we truly want or most need, or if two desires are in conflict, the synchronicities that manifest may not be in our own best interests. We may want something one day, have it the next, and not want it the day after. So before "cosmic choreography" can support us, we need to be clear on what it is we really want. The more we are in touch with our highest intention, the more we find that nature supports.

Intention is not desire. Our desires are our beliefs as to how we might get what we want. We desire money because we think it might buy us greater peace of mind. We desire a mate because we think we will then be happy. Sometimes these ways work (for a while); sometimes they don't. Sometimes something completely different may give us what we need. Cosmic choreography knows how to fulfill our intentions far better than we do. Our task is not to force the world to be a certain way, but to be aware of our underlying intention, and so provide a direction in which synchronicity can flow.

Wizards are clear on their intention. They know what it is they really need; what underlies all their many wants and desires. Wizards hold this intention in their mind. And then let go. No attachment to how or when; just a simple openness to whatever may be - and a silent delight in the synchronicities that come to be.

And there is one more principle I have discovered. I can sit alone in my cottage in the middle of a forest, at peace in myself, centered and whole, and clear on my inner intention, yet here few coincidences occur. Significant coincidences nearly always seem to involve other people in some way. It is as if our interplay with others gives cosmic choreography greater opportunities to reach through to us.

Although we may not be able to make synchronicities happen, we can create environments that foster their occurrence. We can create an inner environment of wholeness and high intention; and in our outer lives we can engage ourselves fully in the world, mix with the social field, go out and play. Play whatever game and role best fits our intentions. Play it with our soul, fully. Play it in whatever way brings us inner wholeness, enjoyment and fulfillment - there is, after all, no point in suffering while we play."

(Peter Russel, How To Be A Wizard)

Be on your guard against the world. Arm yourselves with great strength lest the robbers find a way to come to you, for the difficulty which you expect will (surely) materialize. Let there be among you a man of understanding. When the grain ripened, he came quickly with his sickle in his hand and reaped it. Whoever has ears to hear, let him hear."
(Thomas: 21)


"We have seen that the young child, be it male or female, comes to regard his mother as the supreme God, protector, and provider of eternal happiness. A point is reached, however, when the paths of the young male and female diverge and go their separate ways. The male child gets rejected from his mother, as it were. He is made to realize that he cannot grow up to be a mother, but must become like that altogether shadowy and complex figure in the background, the father.

Indeed, the mother herself encourages him in this, rewarding him if he performs the conventional "manly" acts. Thus, he is pushed firmly, gradually, further and further out into the cold, away from her warmth of old. A process gradual enough to continually reaffirm his addiction to her, yet strong enough to shatter forever his complete trust in woman.

He will never again be entirely comfortable in her presence. Even when in later life he becomes intimately involved with a woman, he remains uneasy - unless she continually displays her unfailing devotion to him. The smallest of signs that she is not wholeheartedly interested in him is enough to cause a man fear. Rejection is but a whisker away!

Now, it is at this tender age that the boy is expected to perform acts of independence. His uncertainty with regard to his mother leads him to value the male world more highly than her - it becomes a substitute mother, a more certain mother. Success and fame become her embrace, male comradeship her affection.

To put it another way, the young boy ceases to see his mother as being perfection, the gatekeeper to eternal happiness, but comes to regard this divinity as being somewhere else - somewhere out in the world. He is made to strive, conquer, and succeed in the world, to succeed enough to be deemed "worthy" by this hidden divinity. Perfection has rejected him - and he spends the rest of his life seeking its favour and acceptance.

At a very young age a boy comes to know the suffering of solitude. He learns to depend on himself, his mind, his wit, and his reason. He learns to introspect in an effort to understand what crime he has committed to deserve such a fate. Perfection has rejected him! Does this therefore mean he is evil? Or worse, uninteresting?"

(David Quinn, An Exposition)

"This is worse than a crime, it's a blunder."
(Charles M. de Talleyrand)

"Blessed is the man who has suffered and found life."
(Thomas: 58)

"Sentimentality is a superstructure covering brutality."
(Carl Jung)